Full of love for you

Seems no matter how much I write
No matter how many tears I cry
No matter how much I ache inside
I'm still full of love for you

Can I forget you?

This Poem was written in regards to my first marriage.
1993

Can I Forget You?
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Love me darlin', true
I will always love you
Hold me close in your heart
Tell me we will never part

I can't turn you away my love
I can't believe it's from above
For if it was, why does it hurt so
Why can't I just turn and go

I must try to forget you
& move on with my life
But can I forget you?
After all I am your wife.

Handed To Thee

I love thee more each passing day

I look around and see your face

I hear your voice most everywhere

Tears fall as I think of how I love thee

I miss your tender touches, 

Your kisses so sincere 

I miss the way you look at me

and then I'd shed a tear

If only I could hold thee,

To feel your warm embrace

Just to cuddle close to you

And kiss your gentle face

I want to whisper something

To tell you how I care

I want to tell you honey

I will always be there

Growing Up

I was writing a letter for my grandmother. Her birthday was coming up. This poem just flowed out the first week in June 1997.

Growing Up

Whispers of love from a tender voice

Trust builds as you are my provider

I look into your eyes and soon I know

You, my mother do love me

Slowly I learn what "love" is

Knowing deep down, I can always count on you

You understand me and my needs

You hold me oh so tenderly

I am growing now and totting around

Pulling everything onto the ground

Wanting everything, but what is mine

I'll out grow it in due time

Now I can run and keep you doing so too

You can't see me, but I can't see you

Laughing out loud from time to time

Knowing ma-ma you're always mine

Teen time has come, yes it's here

"Us together? But friends will leer.

Drop me off on the corner, please

I love you, just don't let 'em see."

I've grown up mom, or so I thought

Using the lessons I've been taught

I never understood why you acted so

But as a mother, now I know

The painful birth for the next child

As time passes it seemed so mild

A mother now, "She's so tiny."

Midnight feedings, "She's so whiny."

Morning comes and comes out

"Tired and cranky," I began to shout

"Day in and out it never stops

Someone, please, kill the clock."

Feeling as if it'll never end

The birthing is on the mend

6 weeks is all that has gone by

"I must get out or I will cry!"

"It's just begun my darling child.

When you get old you'll look back and smile."

"I guess you're right" I said to her

"I guess for now I'll take your word.

LOVE OF A CHILD

Love of a child was written the last week in May 1997. I was on the phone with a friend of mine, Teresa. My mother and I were arguing so I locked myself in my room and called her.

Longing for the younger years

Once a peaceful place

Very happy seldom tears

Ever flowing love

Often seen and seldom heard

Friends til the end

A  love unbroken by time alone

Careless words may ding or dent

Hasty actions, heart is bent

If sorries are spoken

Love is strong

Days unbroken, friendships long

Safe

He's always cared for me
looked out for a sad possibility
He kept me far away from harm
I know he's mine, I'm safe and warm

Pegasus

The winged horse flew 
across the sky
and that's when I knew
that he was mine
to guide and protect
and to hold me tight
to place upon his back
and go with him in flight
to see what he saw
to feel what he felt
that's when I woke up
only to see
that he was lying
right next to me

Lost

looking 'round, where am I?
I'm nowhere to be found
Help me find light
Help me find love
Help me find life

On My Own

 I wrote this one back in 88 I think it was. It was after my mother and I moved back here from Chicago and my brother was allowed to stay behind in the house to graduate with his class. But then something happened causing my mother to have to go back to Chicago to get him. This was written to reflect what I thought he felt.

         On My Own

Feeling stranded, left all alone

Did she abandon her heart and soul

She left me here to struggle,

to struggle on my own

Why'd she leave me all alone

come back, I'm drowning

this large world is too big

All I eat are brownies

I'm skinny as a twig

Tiger

The funny thing about this poem is I didn't lose anyone. I am not really sure anymore what inspired this poem. I was about 14 when I write it and having a very bad emotional time though. ( Don't most teenagers)
  Tiger

I was born as a little tiger

and then I grew into what I am

a ferocious beast killing more and more

for food and life and a long lost love

He came to my rescue on that special day

and decided my life was more important than his

His life was taken and now I'll be

hunting for someone, hope it's not thee

cause if it is

it's not for long

cause I'm a whiz with your death song

Confused

I feel something when I hear your name

that I've never felt before

is it my mind trying to play a game

or is it love forever more

I hear your name and start to cry

and then I smile full of pride

can't you see I don't know why

so I turn away and hide

Questions

What do you when all your dreams tumble?

What do you do when pain strikes again and over?

What do you do when there's no one to turn to?

All you can do is look at the world and smile.

Horses

This poem was the first one I had ever written. I was around 9 years of age. It's funny how I got started writing poetry. My mother handed me a book and had to pick a poem from it, any poem, to memorize. Of course I picked the shortest one, The Animal Fair. I still remember it to this day. Anyway, I loved my mother and knew she loved horses, so this is what I wrote:

Horses

Horses run swiftly

in the brown sand

horses are nifty

boy isn't it grand

Horses are pretty

horses are clever

horses are different

one from another

I have been there before

Who am I to judge you
I've been there before
I can see your pain show through
Cause I've been there before

Your world is crashing down
No one seems to care
You wish you were 'neath the ground
I've been there before

There is no one left to love you
Though that is so untrue
You have me my friend
Cause I have been there before

Right now there is no light
But wait, just open your eyes
You are not alone
Cause I have been there before

The load you bear seems heavy
Turn your trust unto the Lord
He will carry all your sorrow
I have been there before

Nothing is impossible if you love
Love your children and love yourself
You are worth your weight in Gold

I have been there before